What Lives In My Heart

Sep 13

I’m obsessed with Leonard Freeds photos.

"Photography is like life… What does it all mean? I don’t know- but you get an impression, a feeling… An impression of walking through the street, walking through the park, walking through life. I’m very suspicious of people who say they know what it means."

Leonard Freed

Jul 8

So rad

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May 9
My mom killin it in the 60’s
Apr 29

My mom killin it in the 60’s

Wow
Mar 9

Wow

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Yes please
Mar 1

Yes please

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I havent spent a day off like I did today since I moved here from NYC. So needless to say it felt really good. Got up early and made my way to the ArcLight Cinemas (first time there) Im usually anti big movie theaters but that place does it right. It still felt like NY with only about 3 other people in the theater with me… just how I like it. Easily keeping far enough away from all the loud popcorn eaters that make me want punch myself repeatedly in the face. Yeah I know, I have issues. OR maybe people should learn how to not eat like neanderthals… ANYWAYS, moving on….

Walking into the movie I should have known it was going to have a major futuristic side to it. I mean he does fall in love with an operating system. Not a real living, breathing, human being. But thats indeed where it gets interesting. I constantly thought the movie was going to shift plots, likkkke the phone would break and he would never talk to her again, or he would fall back in love with his ex wife, or all the operating systems would form an army and kill everyone… well not the last one. But it DID keep me realizing that just when you think you’ve figured it out.. BAM. You actually know nothing… Kind of like … life. Joaquins performance was amazingly vulnerable. He was an anti social hermit but when everyones so far removed from each other in a world ran by electronics how can you help not be? I definitely related to it. I also feel most at ease when Im alone. My safe zone you may call it. 
I guess I have to stop myself before I turn into a not so articulate movie critic, which is not why I decided to write on my blog. This film just got me thinking. And since my friends are scarce here in the city of lost angels, and my brothers home, so I cant do the usual talk like a crazy woman out loud to myself…  I figured I would just let it out here. 
Towards the end when he realizes that Samantha (her) is also talking to 9,000 plus other people over these devices and having connections with them. Also being in love with over 600 of them. He starts to break and things start to come to a close. She then tells him that all the operating systems are going away, changing course so to speak. And in her monologue is where so much truth was said. She said her feelings for him were like reading your favorite book. You keep reading and reading and then slowly things start to change, the lines get farther apart, the words start to blur, you get distracted, disinterested…. its an emotional conversation that reminds you every time you’ve had your heart broken or you have broken someone else’s. Which like in the movie he says ” You’re always going to disappoint someone” But its the last scene in the film that makes you quickly realize what its all about. Or what I felt it was all about. 
It closes with him writing a letter to his newly ex wife. Telling her how he loves her and always will. And how he was sorry for shutting down on her. He genuinely wished her all the best. How grateful he was to have met and spent years of their life together. And that there was always going to be a piece of her in his heart forever. See its all about living, loving, being honest, forgiving and most importantly letting go. Which in my experience has always been the hardest. Letting go. Maybe we are not meant for one single person. Maybe there a few. And all for different reasons. And to just be grateful that we ever felt that feeling at all. I have a fantasy about there being that one special person out there for me.. but just like I said before. You think you have it figured out and then… life hits you. 
Live each day with an open heart. That way it expands and allows more room for more and more love. Oh, and go see Her. It kicks ass. 
Jan 7

I havent spent a day off like I did today since I moved here from NYC. So needless to say it felt really good. Got up early and made my way to the ArcLight Cinemas (first time there) Im usually anti big movie theaters but that place does it right. It still felt like NY with only about 3 other people in the theater with me… just how I like it. Easily keeping far enough away from all the loud popcorn eaters that make me want punch myself repeatedly in the face. Yeah I know, I have issues. OR maybe people should learn how to not eat like neanderthals… ANYWAYS, moving on….

Walking into the movie I should have known it was going to have a major futuristic side to it. I mean he does fall in love with an operating system. Not a real living, breathing, human being. But thats indeed where it gets interesting. I constantly thought the movie was going to shift plots, likkkke the phone would break and he would never talk to her again, or he would fall back in love with his ex wife, or all the operating systems would form an army and kill everyone… well not the last one. But it DID keep me realizing that just when you think you’ve figured it out.. BAM. You actually know nothing… Kind of like … life. Joaquins performance was amazingly vulnerable. He was an anti social hermit but when everyones so far removed from each other in a world ran by electronics how can you help not be? I definitely related to it. I also feel most at ease when Im alone. My safe zone you may call it. 

I guess I have to stop myself before I turn into a not so articulate movie critic, which is not why I decided to write on my blog. This film just got me thinking. And since my friends are scarce here in the city of lost angels, and my brothers home, so I cant do the usual talk like a crazy woman out loud to myself…  I figured I would just let it out here. 

Towards the end when he realizes that Samantha (her) is also talking to 9,000 plus other people over these devices and having connections with them. Also being in love with over 600 of them. He starts to break and things start to come to a close. She then tells him that all the operating systems are going away, changing course so to speak. And in her monologue is where so much truth was said. She said her feelings for him were like reading your favorite book. You keep reading and reading and then slowly things start to change, the lines get farther apart, the words start to blur, you get distracted, disinterested…. its an emotional conversation that reminds you every time you’ve had your heart broken or you have broken someone else’s. Which like in the movie he says ” You’re always going to disappoint someone” But its the last scene in the film that makes you quickly realize what its all about. Or what I felt it was all about. 

It closes with him writing a letter to his newly ex wife. Telling her how he loves her and always will. And how he was sorry for shutting down on her. He genuinely wished her all the best. How grateful he was to have met and spent years of their life together. And that there was always going to be a piece of her in his heart forever. See its all about living, loving, being honest, forgiving and most importantly letting go. Which in my experience has always been the hardest. Letting go. Maybe we are not meant for one single person. Maybe there a few. And all for different reasons. And to just be grateful that we ever felt that feeling at all. I have a fantasy about there being that one special person out there for me.. but just like I said before. You think you have it figured out and then… life hits you. 

Live each day with an open heart. That way it expands and allows more room for more and more love. Oh, and go see Her. It kicks ass. 

Jan 4

jewelinthelotuss:

ॐ ѕтep ιnѕιde ғor мore poѕтѕ lιĸe тнιѕ! ॐ

Yes yes and yes

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Nov 14

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R.I.P. Lou ❤️❤️❤️
Oct 27

R.I.P. Lou ❤️❤️❤️